"Enlightenment comes in shots not in glasses from which you sip from."

My heart screamed and screamed and screamed tonight. A soundless scream that could only have been heard in my head. I couldn't stop the torrent held back by a terrible dam of deceit.

Epiphany. Finally things are almost in perspective.

Grim. But not apocalyptic. I will survive after all no matter what my illusion says. My illusion created by my imagination of a sob story.

I had lost myself in delusion for a very long while.

Putting myself in to place where I really am was tough especially when I am having little touch with reality. I always knew my imagination and penchant for the unreal meant trouble someday.

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Things are difficult to untangle when it has been messed up.

Most people just give up and leave it tangled like that.

I am one of them. But I don't want to be anymore.

Then again there are things that seem so much tangled that it can never be solved ever. Would I stop to untangle that in hope that I would solve it?

I guess I don't even have to ask myself. Im already there.

Stupid me if I fail.

Genius of the world if I succeed.

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Prognosis?

SengChye.